Despite the tough day, im still wide awake now.
Good or bad, idk.

Since im wide awake, might as well come here blog .

Although the year 2009 have been a bad one, but there are still alot of good things which i want to mention(:

1. I must thank this 2 persons. A MUST! which is my papa and mama! heh heh!
In 2009, they have been really good to me. My papa is like my personal chauffeur. Whenever i give him a call, he will never fails to pick me up unless he is busy lah, like of course:D and he dont have the strict face, me like. For my past 18years of life, he is like my friend, although got afew times he very fierce lah. hahaaaa! but its seldom okayyy! And i very much like tonight! cos i was walking home half way, he called and ask me to stay where i am, he came to pick me up and went supper! haha! and for the first time after so long, we went out as a family on my mama's birthday. Somemore its to IKEA! haha! yes, IKEA, it might be normal for you, but not for my family okayyy! we seldom have family outing one hor! so me like me like:D and i wont forget that we ate zi char twice in a week just to celebrate my mama's birthday this year. hahah! And did i mention that my family can be a zi char gang as well? hahahha! My mama wise ah. Although she nags lah, but after all its for my good. this one i know luh. haha! but sometimes i know me also attitude ah! not good, me will change. ahhaha! She very good okay, i fall sick once this year, quite jialat and she was the one who took care of me. I cried so badly cos i was in pain that night and she woke up and help me apply ru yi you! haha! and i felt better! heh! if you see my mama before, she is very cute right? hahahhaha! short short chubby chubby onezxzxz! next time show you picture!:D hahah!

2. my brothers. okay lah, they not so bad. My eldest bro lend me fujitsu, my 2nd elder bro lend me IBM. I like IBM, but some program it cnt support. So fujitsu came in. hahah! its good they share with me ah, then i can dont buy lappy and have more money to spend=/ hahaha! eh, somemore they also my personal chauffeurs leh. I rmb my eldest bro drove me to kaya's place once, and seokting's place once. Then my 2nd bro drove me to BBDC for BTT and i passed that day. hahahha! when i hang out late, if they got combo, they will come fretch me. You say where to find these kind of brothers? heh! Although they can be irritating at times, esp when my 2nd elder bro will disturb my piglet-,- bwg.

3. My EINSTEIN uncle! recently he helped me with my room's make over. new coat of paint only luh. hahah! But well, im really glad that i have him under one my roof for 18years. he can literally repair anything under the sun. and he is really good with almost everything lurh. and for the first time in my life, i learn how to paint wall from him okay! its not easy hor! really!

4. My g-gang, yeewen, yiyuan, kinwah and junjie. Although we only get to meet up afew times this year; CNY, and all our birthdays. But i know we all really look forward and enjoy every single outing we have. cos its really hard to find a common time to meet. And this year i wont have you guys with me to countdown to year 2010. I have been spending 5 consecutive years of new year's eve with you guys, but not this year. i feel something missing somewhere=( but its okay, lai ri fang chang. we still can meet up during CNY, and any other day! i love you guys, and i mean it!(:

5. My usual 5. I feel good to have you guys around, no matter in school or outing! I rmb for the first time in my life, i went to chinatown to see real fire crackers boomz-ing infront of me, tgt with you guys! We went to genting tgt for the first time and did alot of silly stuff, for example 6 ppl squeezing on 2 pathetic beds. i dont know how we did it also. hahah! ohya, and also my first time on the flyer with you guys. and maybe the countless mahjong session at my house during sem break, tgt with mieko! and first time having the temple dinner with you guys. hahah.

6. DTRM 02. Those birthday celebrations we have. its really fun. Chalet, genting and batam. Like wahlaoeh, we are really a crap class lurh! i wont forget how we reacted when PACC teacher flush the average marks for the whole DTRM cohort and we are the class with 1 A and i think 10Fs. hahaha! We are always the noisy class, but i think we still think we are not that noisy. Ohya, and the 2 cooking sessions we had. So memorable. cos we like some aunties and uncles cooking and eating tgt. heh!

7. KRYPTONITES! Been through alot with this team. and through this team, i get to know great people and i mean each and every single one of us(: our ke ai de coach, CARINE, SARAH, YANLIN, CORRINE, SIYUN, ESTELLA,CADANCE,JACELYN,ANGELINE, MAYOOTHIN, STEFANIE, RUTH, RACHEL, JASLYN(though you left), PRISCILLA. YES, each and every single one of us!(: The times we spent packing fruits and chionging the palets of cherries! heh! really is team bonding sial. and the times we train and fought on court. and of course the christmas picnic, though with the company of the rain, we still enjoyed yah?(:

8. Bangies; SHIMIN, VIVIEN, XIAOYIN, JASLYN. Sorry manymany. cos i have been absent-ing myself from alot of gathering opportunities. no excuses, im just sorry! and i really miss you guys alot alot alot. find time i always say but didnt do. I will, soonnnn. I hope you guys are living and kicking. See you guys real soon=(

9. Friend. Tho i dont always contact you, but whenever you called, i will feel happy. really. and you did make the effort to meet me up occasionally. I really appreciate those little meet up for dinner or even just for a drink or two. Hope you are living on fine with kh(: meet up more. and sorry for missing out mj session everytime. cos the timing just clashes. see you soon(:

10. The circumstances, the environment, everything around me, seems to have more or less make me grow up abit more. I really appreciate each and every(:

11. I make mistakes, i have regrets, i cried, i tried and everything. its good that i have half my mind sorted out alrd. thankfully, it works quite well in reality. i think its good to have reflection once in a while, to know what you are doing, what you are doing it for and adjust accordingly. cos only then you will be happier(: i tried. and you should if you havent(:

After typing all these, i think i shall stop here and get into my dreamland. tmr is another busy day! match, project, steamboat, mj(:

I feel tired after typing this long long post. But its just a positive account of who, what, when, where, why of my 2009. The negative things no say. cos me no like, i like the positive one(:

20hours to 2010(:
excited notzxzxzxz?:D
Goodnight/goodmorning!

because i see, then i realise.

I just came back from kk. went to visit a child. it was just unbelieveable that a child has a cancer at the age of 10. can you still rmb what were you doing at the age of 10, while a girl at the age of 10 is undergoing great pain in the hospital. its not sympathy, but empathy. I hope for miracles to happen, to help the girl, her parents, her family and friends, to go through this tough time.

okay, i have alot to do now.
i think i have my bit of sleep in the day, now is work time.

Goodnight all(:

I think i can, how about you?(:

I believe that as long as i havent cross the ribbon, everything is not impossible.
all i need is just believe.
Time will heal unknowingly.
and everything will just fall back into place.
& because everything has just started.

Well, last 3 days of 2009.
Everyone, enjoy!:D:D:D

I just want you to know;
like no one else will ever know.

Suay, Sian, Sad. whatever you can think of.
this is how my day out ends.

Im not referring to the seoul garden. instead, i had a great time with almost half the class at the dinner(: laiyin,theri,peixian,yanyun,eugene,wenhong,zhongjie and norman. Eat and eat only. hahaha! then zhong ji mi ma. forfeit to eat those omg stuffs. haha! then we settled the bill, eugene yanyun and norman went off. the rest of us proceed to the same spot for games and took some pictures. of course the games come with forfeit too... But towards the end, my battery low, so jitau switch off alrd...

So my first sentence is in regards to the point i reach cck. I almost forget that i rode my bike out this morning. but when i was on the train reaching cck, i sudden rmb that i did brought my bike out today. then i went to pick it up, its goneeeeeeeeeeee. like fcuk, that point of time, i know gone case. fcuk(s). my bike is gone just like that. and i have to walk all the way home despite my low battery mode as im lazy to walk back to the interchange and wait for bus at 12am. damn sianed you know you know?!?!?!?

When i was walking home, i chua sai-ed by a uncle at the fitness corner under my blk. I walk through the fitness corner and didnt realise he's standing there sial. then he keep starring at me. damn it. So i walk faster to reach home faster, if not im afraid i will dig out his eyes.

So, my mama and papa didnt scold me for the loss of bike, cos this is not the first time cos my bro encounter it also. So fcuk CCK station and fcuk to the person who made his/her effort to cut my lock and push my bike home happily like you have won a bike in a luckydraw. fcuk you. I just hope when u ride my bike, u slip and fall, bang the wall and kiss the floor. I know im mean. but just let me be lah ah. only today, i swear. So you fcuker, get a better life and not stalk and steal people's bike. Of course i know you only want my bike becos its a chio bike and you wont want to steal those jiabalang bikes. Sorry to say, even my bike is chio. You, as a thief, you ride on it, im sure my bike will give you hell. just so you wait. fcuker.

Other than the loss of my bike, another thing also fcuk me up. but well, i dont want to talk abt it. I think what i need is to chill down and think properly in the right state of mind. so i think i need to cool myself down and get a good night rest. GOODNIGHT ALL!

Tmr will be another night full of fun and laughter if i can last.
JIAYOU!(:

Okayyyyyyyyyyy!
Something coming up as soon as later of the day,
STAY TUNE LARH AH!:D

im tired and i want some sleep,
goodnight all!:D

Need a change. What are you thinking of? I mean my blog lah! Heh heh!