<body>
PRISCILLA
thy blog owner.
Singapore


Wait;
this space will be filled up


AFFILIATES
the big big world.
Allon.
Boon Yik.
Cailing.
Crystal.
Estella.
Eugene.
Jacelyn.
JianYang.
Joshua.
Jun jie.
Karen.
Kelroy.
Laiyin.
Lester.
Norman.
Peixian.
Peiyu.
Randolph.
Shaun.
Shimin.
SzeYee.
Vivien.
WeeKiat.
WenHong.
Xiaoyin.
Yi Yuan.
Zhong Jie.


REMINISCENCE
flashbacks.
  • January 2008
  • February 2008
  • March 2008
  • April 2008
  • May 2008
  • June 2008
  • July 2008
  • August 2008
  • September 2008
  • October 2008
  • November 2008
  • December 2008
  • January 2009
  • February 2009
  • March 2009
  • April 2009
  • May 2009
  • June 2009
  • July 2009
  • August 2009
  • September 2009
  • October 2009
  • November 2009
  • December 2009
  • January 2010
  • July 2010
  • June 2011


    • CREDITS
    spontaneous applause.
    Layout: materialisti-c
    Resources: ♥ ♥ ♥

    Sunday, March 16, 2008
    Title : Shrugged
    Time : 11:23 PM

    I deleted my previous post, cos i know its quite ome.

    Looking back at wad i posted in my blog 3yrs ago, i really regretted. My tears nearly dropped.It feels shitty. Why didnt i follow my dream?. I cnt answer this question. Really Cnt, unable to give the best answer, or rather the best excuse. Out of a sudden, i feel like reading my posts 3 yrs back, and i came across this post which, makes me think so deep. Why didnt i realise it earlier?. I feel the waste and the pain... The post reminds me of how worried i was when i got just a pass for 2 bio class tests, fearing that i might not be able to take bio as a sub for Os. and i Clearly stated that my dream was to become a doctor. This happened when i just started bio in the first half of my sec 2 life. See the exaggeration?. I remember back then, in lower sec, bio was my fav science out of the 3. For the semester which we only studied bio, i got 74 out of 100. I feel so happy for myself then. Towards the end of sec2, which sub combi was on its way to us, i realised i am short of 0.1 or 1 percentage for my science to get into a tripple science class which is equals to not having bio in my combi, i called cindy and i cried as i told her i might not get bio for my sub combi. She said i might not know, i might just get in?. lols, to think that i really break down as i did the calculation myself out of the sudden that day. oh well, in the end, yeah, i got my sub combi, i was elated. Secondary 3, the start of bio, i NV complain abt BIO at all, and i am really interested in learning bio, ALTHO i fail all my way thru sec 3 and 4. except for 1 or 2 times when i got just passed. My name will always bottom the class. But still, i dun have the feeling of giving up. Cos thats my interest, my fav sub which i fought hard for. and i rmb once someone told me i wasn't expected to be in 3sci as i lack of that 0.1 or 1 percentage, but Ms Gay choose me to be in her class then. Seriously, i was upset but at the same time, feeling lucky because i was still placed in bio class. I also felt grateful to ms gay, even though i always make fun of her and talking back to her=/ I did my bio Os, and didnt expect it to be counted in my r4 or r5 as i had always been getting D7 for my bio. But it was the other side of the coin, bio was the only science which i can depend on for my r4 and r5. I rmb when i received my Os results, bio was the last listed sub on the results slip,the moment i saw my eng results i was happy that i scream and jump out of the seat and hugged ms goh SK, as she happened to be standing beside my class when i was collecting results, i looked down my slip and the last and the most unexpected grade appeared, Biology-A2! I was filled with tears of happiness then. Ms goh also cried with me. Can u imagine that u actually scored an distinction for a sub that u had been failing all the time, at the same time its ur fav sub but u didnt intend it to be part of ur r4 or r5?. Later that day, i did called Ms Gay, i thanked her. She doesnt seems to be surprised cos she was already informed earlier on, but i bet she is surprised the moment she knows!. Oh ya, a few days before Bio Os papers, i even jokingly told ms gay that she will have an A from our class, and the A will surely comes from me. I just randomly said that when we were outside the staff room asking her questions abt bio. in the end, it turns out true.

    Unknowingly, i alrd type out all my thoughts, all my thinkings, all my happenings with the subject Biology. Forgive my long essay abt me and my bio.

    But still, why did i gave way to the needle which burst my dream, my desire to become a doctor?. I am really unsure abt this. However, i have another thinking, how abt a Private.As?... And it doesnt mean that i am not interested in TnR. TnR yes, i am still in it:)